The Journey goes on

 About that time for another post. We look to be in the final stages of getting my Bride to the US. She has her Embassy interview at the end of next month. If all goes well she, and her son, could be here by Early May. All I can do is wait and see but the year long journey is coming to an end.  However, I wont believe it until she makes it here and is in my arms.

  Not sure if I mentioned earlier but I left my Job effectively the end of january and still no new employment opportunities. As I am able to afford my current existence AND I have a Fiance on the way I stopped pushing for new employment. I will dive in again once she arrives. Until then I still have over a dozen resumes out there and even though time does not look favorable for a happy ending on any of them I wont be turning down any offers that do present themselves.

 With the world in such conflict with itself, and everyone caught up in the turmoil I have been seperating myself from most of the world and communities. I just don't understand humans any longer. They all seem to be yelling and disagreeing without really listening. I cant make anyone see the truth or change how they are, as history has proven time and again you cant force people to be or do anything. They have to want it themselves. All I can do is change myself. They best way to not be affected by what's going on around me is simply to NOT PLAY THE GAME. I am setting myself up to a simple lifestyle, hopefully with another kind person next to me, and to ignore the news, social media, opinions (basically the chatter) around me. I don't need others telling me how I should feel or what I should believe in. What I think is the only true freedom I have (freedom of speech is a LIE in America) and the only way to preserve that for now is to not broadcast it over social media (yes I do realize the irony in this post). My lifestyle is my way of telling the world I dont give a Fuck what you think, or how you feel, just leave me alone.

 I realize I no longer need or want to be happy, I just want peace and contentment. The world moves on around me as I am not the center of the universe. Cause no harm is a motto that allows me to survive without disruption the world around me. Someday maybe humanity will evolve their emotional ways to find a similar method to coexist but I won't hold my breath. 

New year

 I have tried to do regular posts. Ones that would bring out thoughts I had for specific ideas or topics. However the frequency I post has made this pretty worthless. An idea a year seems pathetic. So I guess I will turn this more into a journal.

2026 has began the start of a turning point for me. I quit my job 3 weeks ago. I say quit, more like resigned before they could fire me. Was under investigation for violating company policies concerning email security and even though I am sure I could have survived the investigation I could not take the chance so resigned. This forced me to move on. I worked at the shipyard for almost 9 years but to tell the truth I hated every day.  I will miss the 6 figure salary but I think I will be able to manage with less, and hopefully live a more enjoyable life. Also, 19 months ago I started a relationship with a young woman in Vietnam. After 6 months we got engaged and currently still waiting for the approval to bring her to the US to be married. I have been married 3 times in my 50+ years and getting married again seems insane. Yet she has very old world family beliefs and shows genuine affection for someone like me so it feels right doing this. My journey now is to wed and live out the rest of my days in a very simple lifestyle. It a bonus that she is also a Buddhist. As I have practice Buddhism for almost 30 years it is nice to share religious beliefs with someone I don't have to explain my lifestyle to. In the last 19 months I have been to Vietnam twice (You don't think I would get engaged without meeting in person do you?).

So thats my tale for now. I sit at home every day just waiting on emails. The email from the Ho Chi Minh Vietnam Embassy saying the paperwork is ready for my fiancée to apply for her Visa and many emails concerning the 2 dozen reply's concerning the jobs I have applied for. As I pray at my home shrine daily I wait for better news on what the future may hold for me.